So it happened. Muire is not a baby anymore. Aithne and Muire stopped breastfeeding
yesterday. It´s a bit nostalgic thing for Aithne, but Muire loves the banana
milk mummy bought and she is not even missing the mummy one. Muire was as happy
as she always was, mum was holding her small body in her arms and Muire was
sovoring the jummy taste of the new milk. Muire is so beautiful. And she knows :-). Anytime she does
something she is „not supposed to“ (Aithne doesn´t like this term, because it´s
very subjective) she knows one only smile will put Aine back right. Aithne was
a little bit sick of helping Muire fall asleep. So Muire learns now how to
sleep alone, the two last nights she did. The first one it last 20 minutes,
yesterday only 10. Aithne hopes today it will be at least so good as yesterday.
Aithne is very happy having Muire. Aithne is very happy with
her life. People told her she blossomed like the rose on B612. Aithne knows.
But Aithne knows more than all the people do. What a challenging road it was,
to find herself, her self-love and happiness. And only one thing was
neccessary. To accept her own pain, to give herself a caress and to tell
herself everything is ok and she is safe. To tell herself „I love you and I
always will, no matter who comes and no matter who leaves you. Only I am here
for all the time.“
At the same time the world stopped spinning for a little
moment. And everyone who met her, smiled. And Aithne melt as the Ice. Aithne
hopes this moment would last for ever… Everything is beautiful, everyone is
nice. There are some moments it disappears. But Aithne always stands up and
goes. She already knows the big true. What a pity it´s so hard to describe it with
only words…
:-*
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